SinceUWereMine

well looks like its through … shall just prepare for the worst now .. suddenly dinner seems to pass so slowly .. just want to get this over now …

i wish and pray it would turn out well but I have a very bad feeling about it :(

I love u

just had lunch w jason, just realized that this is the period that they got engaged which means it’s the same period WE were in a fight last year

five mins after I posted my tumb u call and what’s ap me.. on things totally not related to my post or us … hope u have fun .. hate this

it’s so tiring to jump on every SMS , on every freaking what’s app … on every call.

I am tired and I officially give up waiting

i am missing you so so badly .. Just thought i could sneak a peek at you earlier.

i hope the radio silence these two days allowed you to clear your mind. i actually dont know if its a good or bad thing. it might turn bad. But i guess if you are meant to be mine you would be no matter what challenges is thrown at US.

Well at least u have quite a while to decide if i am really worth it or rather am i someone you are willing to spend more time and energy on.

the last year had me scrambling to amend, to atone, to apologize, to cry, to plead,to change.. i am drained juat drained. I just thought that everything is behind us, finally we could jus cuddle up and get comfortable and enjoy th fruits of our trauma.

you are so so awesome, so awesome that i am surprised that i am so crazy over you, but sometimes you make me feel so in-significant to you, like how you

plan your year without me

plan your holidays without me

making life decisions without me

cry without me

sometimes i would love to be consulted, to be the first person you turn to no matter what happens, to be the the person you whine to. To be the man.

maybe i am densed but your tumblr is confusing me. :( not only is it confusing me. it makes me fell so little, such a lousy bf.

i just miss you so so so god damn much… i just wish for a hug and cuddling up with you, right now i am just hoping that the door would open.

Looks like you are having so much fun without me so i shall just curl up in bed now. nights baby.

tired tired tired ..

saw this in my previous entry  …

well i am back in my emo space once more. Its been a while isnt it.

once again back bruised and lost.

how do i amend a vibe ?
how do i “unvibe” an unknown vibe ?

i dont know … i really dont !

how can i be supportive of something when this something hurt the one person so close to your heart. Someone you swore to love and protect. Can you even blame me for being angry at something that made me break my promise ?

I know i have found the one, i have found my “forever”, but it seems i am not your “forever”, in fact i dont even make you “happy”.

reading your tumblr is like a knife thru my heart, twisting it 180 degrees and snapping the handle off.

//quote//

where’s my forever?

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fight ? why fight when you can sit down and discuss it .. communicating ? is it so difficult ?

sometimes when u have exhausted all the tricks in your bag and it seemed to have worked because you got back what you so desired, you just want to layback, enjoy the fruits of labour, enjoy the breeze and bask in the warmth of your someone.

Just realized i posted a shitload these couple of days…

totally didnt have the mood to work.